Opportunistic Human Being

Chances and risks everywhere

Never look down

It's almost to hard to bear

But it's important to keep going because life goes round

Inconsistencies cause the bumps

Life without struggle is like eating fish without the bones

Life without happiness is like anything undescribable

Never let the opportunties pass by

Take them because they are yours

And they belong to no one else

It's not a competittion

It's a matter of being an opportunistic human being

Go to far away places

Go deep down deep into yourself

And find a way to never forget this life

This life of happiness, and hopeful love

Hope to fly high and live the right life

Find the beauty within like a dove

Opportunities will never just come and go

They will be inbedded into your mind forever

Whether you take them or not

It's your life; it's your choice; live righteously

Undesirable

Commitment and love: Two words that I do not take very seriously.

I laugh when I see him with her. I smile and shake it off because they are happy together.

Boyfriend: A word that I have never had the opportunity to possess.





"Just have a group of friends. Don't get involved with any ONE boy," my mother would tell me.






The perfect kiss: What a joke.

I'm reluctant. When he gets near me, I say funny and awkward things to make him laugh.


Irresistable: That is exactly what he is.


But I resist. I go on acting friendlier than friendly. He will never know.


Attempts: He has made one. I did nothing about it.


I continue on with my life as if I don't need anyone. "The SINGLE life."


SINGLE: Is what I have been for a long time.


Maybe I'm just undesirable. And thats why I'm single.

Maybe I should stop being so afraid. Grow up. Learn to love.



But.....

"It takes not time to fall in love, but it takes you years to know what love is."

-Jason Mraz

So...Becareful.

He is my mentor - Discrete Knowledge

./Jason Mraz/.

Gratitude

Humility

Kindness

Love

Peace

Righteousness 

My Title is THE Title and it is My life

I've never in my life done this before.  I'm feeling awkward as I usually do.  I should stop talking about myself. No. It's okay. This is what it's all about. Maybe I should mention school, work, friends, family, non-existent love life..........

Let me not worry too much about this.  This is blogging.

Today is Friday, May 15. A year ago around this time I was preparing for my final days of high school with traditional and RAGING events such as prom, celebrity night, awards night, graduation, and my birthday.  Celebrity night. What a ridiculous thing.  Basically, a night to acknowledge all those who have specialized in a certain area of (there is no word for what I am thinking). Let's just say that I was nominated for Most Friendly and LOST. Was I disappointed? Yes. I will admit I was. But the girl who did end up winning was a kind friend of mine. OH. How friendly she was. Maybe I'm not friendly after all.  I think people were confusing extremely nice for friendly.  Nice is probably the best way to describe me.  Too nice? Yes. Sometimes. A lot of the times.  I need to be. I have to be. It's just how it always was and always will be. Amen. 

It's nice to reminisce about the past.  High School is now the past.  College is my present and future. 

COLLEGE was something I worried about practically all throughout high school.  Will I go to one? Will I get in? Blah Blah like that. BOOM. I got it. POW. Freshman year was one of the hardest years of my life. WOW. It changed me. 

How? I drink alcohol a lot more than I used. I party a lot harder. I have a FAKE that looks nothing like me. I'm friends with people I would have never been friends with last year. I smoked a cigarette for this first time. I got written up for drinking in the dorm. I went to church on my own. I participated in classes. I took public speaking. I found out I worked great under pressure. I went on a retreat. I ended both semesters with a 3.5 GPA. I stayed in touch with my family everyday. 

As you can see, I've done some bad things and I've done some good things.

Have I changed in a bad way or a good way?

Who am I?

No one yet. It's Okay. I won't worry now. My life. I won't worry it away.