Undesirable

Commitment and love: Two words that I do not take very seriously.

I laugh when I see him with her. I smile and shake it off because they are happy together.

Boyfriend: A word that I have never had the opportunity to possess.





"Just have a group of friends. Don't get involved with any ONE boy," my mother would tell me.






The perfect kiss: What a joke.

I'm reluctant. When he gets near me, I say funny and awkward things to make him laugh.


Irresistable: That is exactly what he is.


But I resist. I go on acting friendlier than friendly. He will never know.


Attempts: He has made one. I did nothing about it.


I continue on with my life as if I don't need anyone. "The SINGLE life."


SINGLE: Is what I have been for a long time.


Maybe I'm just undesirable. And thats why I'm single.

Maybe I should stop being so afraid. Grow up. Learn to love.



But.....

"It takes not time to fall in love, but it takes you years to know what love is."

-Jason Mraz

So...Becareful.